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Post by Regina Mills on Feb 6, 2015 20:55:39 GMT -5
It had taken Regina time to think to ponder what to say to Neal. He and rest watched in horror as Rumple proved that he was in fact a hero. Here at the bed room door. staring at the black and pewter trimmed building up the courage to knock to try and comfort the man. biting her lip god this was Snow's department not her's . no the evil queen was better at causing misery not bringing hugs and comfort. sighing looking down the hall way on each side of her . it wasn't to late to walk away to go back to her room. closing her eyes no Rumple was a mentor ,friend and enemy at times. He would want that Regina would go and spread comfort to his kin. lifting a arm up knocking lightly . she could do this many a times Regina had to comfort Henry . that couldn't be so different . Neal are you in there? The evil queen's voice diminutive in volume. Seeing Rumple die before them had made Regina relive Cora demise. that's what she can use to talk to him. they have both lost parents alright little more confident if you don't want to open the door ill understand. when I lost my mother it killed me. though we had a lot of issues we still loved one another . I know rumple loved and cared for you Neal and if you want to talk I'm here . Neal Cassidy
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Post by Neal Cassidy on Feb 6, 2015 22:53:44 GMT -5
Since coming back to the Forest, Neal hadn't wanted to see many people, if anyone at all. Just as he had a chance at happiness with his family for the first time in years, once again it was taken away thanks to magic. First his father was gone thanks to that stupid dagger, that he could've gotten rid of years ago. And now Emma and Henry were a world away, and away from him.
Yes, he'd come back to the castle with Snow and Charming and everyone, but, he stayed to himself anyway, locked up in his room most of the time. Neal didn't get why he was so affected by his father's death, they had been seperated years ago and he didn't really have the strongest feelings and best memories of him since then.
Neal knew that being here in the Forest just reminded him of the life he used to have here and could've had if his father never changed or had come with him all those years ago. Neal was lying down on the bed and punched the wall of the castle, he knew that he may have to fix that later, but, he had stuff to get out and he would fix it.
As Neal lay there, that moment with his father killing himself with his own dagger came into his head. All he wanted was his happiness, that's what he said all those years ago and it ended the same way as it did then. With him alone in a different world.
Hearing that knock on the door brought him out of his thoughts, he was surprised by the person who's voice it was on the other side. Of all people he was expecting, it was definitely not the Evil Queen. Neal wasn't sure he wanted to open the door, but, he listened to her words anyway and sat upright tempted to make his way to the door and open it.
Someone coming to his room in an attempt to comfort him was new to him since he had never had anyone in his life like that. Someone who actually came to his room to check on him rather then to yell at him or hit him for doing something wrong.
'I know Rumple loved and cared for you', these words made Neal start to feel the pain inside him again. He knew this was true now, but, he figured it out too late and now he was gone and he had no way to ever even get the possibility of having him back.
Neal stood up and made his way to the door before opening it and looking at Regina, wiping his eyes as he did. "Hey Regina. Do you want to come in?" Neal asked.Regina Mills
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Post by Regina Mills on Feb 7, 2015 20:02:13 GMT -5
stepping back a somewhat shocked that Neal had opened the door at all. Dolefully Regina walked in to the room picking the skirt of the dress up slightly so not to trip. the room was poorly lit and the curtains closed . Had he been living in such way since? its stuffy in here do you mind if I open a window? a breeze and sunlight would do him some good. ugh where the heck did that come from...deadpanning her features . Simpering snow and lumbering prince. one week of camping and she has picked up there qualities shuddering at the thought. how are you ? It has been while since we arrived back to the palace and I wanted to see how you were. tired and crestfallen that what the man looked like to her. dark shadows lay beneath his eyes and clothes seem crumbled. heading to the fireplace Regina created and threw a fire ball into the hearth . Doubting that he was staying warm at night . if you cant sleep the servants can bring you a pot of tea or something stronger. I would suggest I could give you apple but then that might be met with pick axes and hanging mob. teasing wanting to lighten the mood with Neal. I miss him terribly both Henry and Rumple. But you cant live like this Neal. mourn then pick your self up they would want that Regina sighed heavily dusting her hands off. she hadn't talked about Henry since they arrived it caused to much pain. that's why I'm inviting you to dinner tonight with all of us. Being around others will do you some good. Belle... she needs you to . Neal you two talk more you both have lost some one you care about. grieving and holding on to the pain will eat away at you till there is nothing left. I know, it lets darkness creep in . Neal Cassidy
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Post by Neal Cassidy on Feb 7, 2015 22:38:45 GMT -5
Neal looked at Regina and smiled softly as he saw her reaction to him opening the door. Stepping aside, he let Regina come into his room and closed the door slowly before resting his head against it gently. At her question, he turned to face her “No, I don't mind. Go ahead.” Neal said. He knew that she was starting to sound like Henry's other grandparents, Snow and Charming. He wasn't sure how he felt about that, since he was purposely avoiding that for a reason. Neal knew they would try to cheer him up, and he wasn't sure whether he liked this or not since he just lost his whole family again and he didn't need their god damn optimism right now.
“I'm as good as I can be considering everything that happened.” Neal said. He hadn't really slept all that much since coming back here. His clothes were the same way that they had been all those years ago when he was on the streets. His attention went to his fireplace as he saw Regina throw a fireball into it, finally bringing a fire into the room. It wasn't like he didn't know how to survive and make fires, 200 years of that on Neverland. “I'll keep that in mind. I just need something to help me sleep. Everytime, I close my eyes, my head just fills with images of the three of them. Yeah, apples from the Evil Queen may not be a good idea” Neal said, remembering how the story went, both in the world he grew up in and from what Snow had actually told him.
“I miss the three of them, Henry, Emma and my father, I feel like I miss my father more then I should've or expected. I'm working on it, picking my self up slowly.” Neal said. It wasn't like Neal hadn't mourned or lost family before, he had lost his father when he was 14 and his mother at an age when he couldn't remember her. The pain of losing his father was stronger this time around though, since it just felt like he abandoned him all over again. Of course the pain of losing Emma and Henry was just as strong inside him. Neal's eyebrows raised as Regina invited him to dinner, he hadn't really been close to most of the people here, he hadn't been in Storybrooke long enough, compared to everyone else. “I'll think about it. I know that Belle needs me, or someone. I plan to find her later and try to talk to her. I'm sure it'll pass in time, it's not like I haven't had to deal with moving past losing someone before. Yes, the circumstances for that, may be different, but, the feelings still the same.” Neal said, as he looked down at the ground before glancing back up to Regina.Regina Mills
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Post by Regina Mills on Feb 9, 2015 21:29:45 GMT -5
watching as Neal didn't bring his gaze back up to meet her. knowing that losing a loved one was heavy on the soul. when I lost my mother so much was left unspoken. I had all this guilt and pain within me . I didn't know how I would ever survive . waving hand the curtains open up . rays of sunshine shined into the room illuminating area. At first she tried to get vengeance upon snow but that objective failed. after she was captured by greg and tamara tortured the queen wished that she had been able to confess everything that laid on her heart, so she did while she was being electrocuted . the brunette in her mind told Cora what was all on mind and heart. true she thought she was going to die and needed to rid her self of sins and heart ache. but it wasn't until she was saved by snow and charming that easement had hit her. you should talk to him, tell him everything you feel Neal. it will help you move forward in life. so your not stagnate . heading toward one of the chairs by the windows . sitting down nimbly sinking into the cushions of the chair. Neal that's the point though, your not alone . we are your family Henry however not here has brought us together. listen im not good at this but I was ..my relationship with your father ...was complicated. stammering out her words pressing a hand to her forehead why was this so difficult? maybe I should go get snow she is better at this comfort gig . need some one cursed im your gal. comfort no sighing propping her elbow on the arm rest regina leaned her head on hand staring up at the man. way to go muck this up royally Regina scolding her self .
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Post by Neal Cassidy on Feb 10, 2015 2:58:36 GMT -5
Neal kept his hands in the pockets of his wardrobe, which he was still re-getting used to at this moment. Listening to Regina, he kept his head lowered unsure what to say to her at this point in time. “That's how I'm feeling about my father at this moment. He left me again and now I just have so much more pain then before, well, the new pain and the old pain resurfacing. I also feel slight guilt, since it took me so long to forgive him and believe he was capable of changing.” Neal said, squinting as the curtains were blown open and the sun came into the room.
When he first landed out of the Forest, he had so much hatred for his father for abandoning him, backing out of their deal and not wanting him. While he was living on Neverland, it didn't exactly make it go away, if anything it made it grow. Neal knew that he had been able to tell his papa about his life between being abandoned and meeting Emma, but, there was so many feelings that he hadn't told him. Feelings of pain and heart-ache towards him, feelings of loss and unwantedness at no-one else wanting him either. Now, if anything, it grew stronger after watching his papa die.
Looking up at Regina, he tilted his head confused “How am I supposed to do that? He's dead.” Neal asked as he watched her sit down in one of the chairs by his window. “So everyone keeps telling me, but, none of them really know how alone I still feel though. You're right, he's not here, but, he managed to give me something I lost years ago. People who care about me. I don't think there were many relationships with my father that weren't complicated in some way. Even mine was with him.” Neal said, sighing sadly. Neal was upset that this was how their relationship ended, that they hadn't had a chance to properly fix it. “Whichever you think, but, Snow's already done her 'comforting' thing. I'm not sure it helped much.” Neal said, remembering that conversation with Snow well. Neal looked around his room and then sat down on his bed as he faced Regina.Regina Mills
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Post by Regina Mills on Feb 11, 2015 20:03:32 GMT -5
lips pucker into a frown as Neal continue to unburden his heart. Regina hadn't asked rumple what all had happen between father and son to cause the riff in the first place. she didn't feel it was her place nor at the time did she care. looking back on that it was probably a mistake. Rumple was mystery and so was his son at least toward Evil Queen. shifting in the chair crossing one leg over the other. Neal's abandonment issues ran deep , Regina was stumped upon what to tell him. She would have given anything to be left alone by her parents. smiling sadly at the clearly the wounded man.
you just talk like we are doing now but to them. think perfect conversation they cant talk back .there had plenty of times since they all had returned back to the Enchanted Forest where she few talks with Henry. a mix of how much she missed him , on how she should have done thing differently and how much he would love this place. but it was pointless to think about the last one her son would never see his home land. being pulled out her thoughts Regina glanced up at Henry's father. really Rumple was so warm and cuddly that's shocking smiling wanting to break the tension for moment in the room. you know its pretty bad if Snow fails she more of the nurturer type. bowing her head evil queen rubbed her forehead. I think the reason why I have put this off is because you remind me so much of henry. its hard to be near you. feeling guilty for even uttering it.
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Post by Neal Cassidy on Feb 12, 2015 23:44:05 GMT -5
Neal's heart continued to feel heavy as he thought about the combination of pain and guilt he felt, causing him to feel worse then he did last time. Neal didn't know whether Regina knew about him and his father, the thing that caused them to seperate in the first place. He knew that his father hated people knowing his personal business, but, from the sounds of it, none of them even knew he existed before he, Emma and Henry came to find him in New York. Neal sighed sadly as he thought about this, he never even spoke of him to anyone at all. Of course, he never spoke much of his father, but, that was different. Telling people in the real world that his father was Rumpelstiltskin, may have sounded bad, even if he didn't hate him. Neal smiled softly, as Regina smiled at him.
“I guess that could work, for once my father couldn't interrupt me” Neal said. There was so much he wished he could and wanted to say to his father, and his mother. Ask why they abandoned him in the first place and tell his father how he felt like he had abandoned him again by killing himself with that dagger. He also wanted to speak to Emma and Henry, tell him that he missed them and that they were the most important people in his life no matter how far apart they were from each other now. Neal let out a soft chuckle at Regina's reaction to his father having complicated relationships with most. “I know right, totally shocking” Neal said, with his usual sarcasm. Neal smiled and nodded his head gently “Yeah, it wasn't like I didn't appreciate it. It's just what she was saying was just making things worse in a way or she wasn't exactly making me feel better.” At her comment about him reminding her of Henry, he sighed and looked at her “So, I remind you too much of my, or rather our son. I guess that's a good thing, but, I don't want to think of that at this point in time. It's ok that it took you this long, I wasn't really in the mood to see anyone anyway.” Neal said, not wanting to see his son in himself since that made things worse at times. Regina Mills
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Post by Regina Mills on Feb 14, 2015 21:58:45 GMT -5
don't say that my dear im sure beyond the grave the imp would love to have the last word. god knows that in life Rumple had taken great pleasure in such things at least with her. flash of scenes played out in her mind from the first moment they met to their last lesson. their relationship ranged from bitter sweet to almost painful. there were moments Regina had hated the dark one for what he had done to her, turning into the monster that she had become. but she knew that if she hadn't chosen that path that she would have never had Henry. a tiny fragile smile curled her lips. god the first few days the baby wouldn't stop crying he just kept going and going. Regina feared that he had sensed something in her the evil lurking below the surface. blinking back tears the evil queen quickly wiped a tear away. she shouldn't be thinking of her son it was not the time or the place. guffawing at Neal made shaking her head yes because he was so lovable.forcing her self to stop laughing it had been far to long it was nice to be able to once again. sighing bravo Regina you have done it this time really put your foot in your mouth. im sorry , I didn't think that through . listen you want vent do so you want to sit and breeze we can .
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Post by Neal Cassidy on Feb 15, 2015 0:31:44 GMT -5
“Maybe so, but, at least I'd be able to tell him. He never could let anyone else have the last word” Neal said, smiling softly. Remembering the life that the two of them once had in the time from his papa becoming the Dark One and being abandoned through that portal. Even after they were reunited, his father tried having the last word and, if Neal hadn't walked away that day in the apartment, he would've done so. Neal's relationship with his father was complicated and ranged from feelings of love to feelings of pain. He loved his papa, but, there's some things that will never be the same after being abandoned. Neal knew that if he wasn't abandoned, then he never would've met Emma and he wouldn't have Henry now, but, he would've still had his father. While it was a complicated situation, he wouldn't change having Henry and Emma in his life. Neal blinked away tears as he saw memories of the first thing he'd ever taught Henry, it was the exact same thing that he was first really taught. Sailing a pirate ship. Neal didn't want to think about Henry or Emma now, but, it wasn't like he could stop himself. He was once again far away from his whole family and everyone he cared about most.
Neal continued to smile as he sarcastically commented about his father again “Oh yes, totally loveable.” Neal knew that he should stop himself from laughing, since he was loveable to him once, sarcastically or not. As Regina told him that he reminded her of Henry, it made him slightly sad. Neal hadn't had the chance to know Henry as well as both Regina and Emma, and now everytime he saw memories of Henry in his head, and it just reminded him of everything he missed. “It's ok. It's not like I never thought about that before anyway. That may be a good idea, letting some of these mixed feelings out. Maybe then I'd be able to have a chance at moving past these feelings for good.”Regina Mills
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